Mentality is very environmental friendly !

Mentality of a person has effects of its surroundings. Be it company of people around you or family influence on your behavior.You bound to become like what your surroundings offer to you. I have seen many examples in my life how people's mentality is affected strongly with their surroundings. 

There are some people who live at reserved level and quite do not blend well with others socially - hence they have very limited number of people in their own circle. Sometimes, life teaches you a very good lesson and gives you ample of reason to change who you are. That is how you are bound to change and survive. 

A person who has grown up in an environment where the family members use slang calling each others, abuse the daughters of the house, illiterate and never have been in touch of that part of society who has some different standards of living - with respect. No matter how much you try to help a person who brought up in that environment it is always gonna be in vain. I have a friend who happened to belong to such an environment and no matter how much I and other common friend tried to inspire her, she just does not get it. They behave as if you are literally talking alien to them. Finally, even though you feel sorry for that friend and really want her to live a better life, there isn't much you can do about her. 

You keep wondering that how can a person just live a life like that, but they are happy with that and I feel sometimes it is better to leave the matter like that. 

Sometimes, enough is really more than enough!!

I always used to wonder that when I will get fed up of doing and investing myself for relation or on someone. Is it even possible! But now, there is a vague feeling of enough is enough now inside. 

Ever wonder that in a relationship, if only person is actively dedicating herself/himself and the other one is actively seeking partner of his/her age in spite of being in a relation - how far this would work? Dedicated person might tolerate everything for year or few more years. Then? Eventually she/he realizes that it won't work. Why it took this long to realize it? Perhaps, the hope that things will be alright one day. But that one day does not seem to be coming any sooner or later. Hence apopemptic. 

I have seen people working so hard and then finally upon realization they just do not care anymore. The dedication might have been 150% once upon a time but then eventually they realize it is nothing but making a fool of themselves by being doormats and collecting people's dirt all over themselves just for the sake of having people in life. 

There comes a time when you just stop trying, holding and you realize it is way more easy to let go eventually. 

Birthday makes you saner !

One more year gone !! Winter has been chiller than past two winters here in North America. I have made myself pretty cozy in front of my window with blanket, my kindle and a mug of Mocha. View of white reflections of sunlight from snow had been brightening my room. 

Last year might not be the best year I had but it indeed was an important year where I learned lots of new things. There were some same old friends who never leave my side no matter how unbearable I become. Then there happen to be some old forgotten lot who never used to be any important part. 

At the end of 2017, I am glad that I can conveniently conclude it wasn't a complete waste. It came with some of very useful lessons. I can feel I have become little better person with absolutely some addition to maturity as well. I learned to make peace with minimal efforts in life. I have learned to take care of myself and the people who take care of me. I have learned not to give a damn about those who don't value my presence in their lives. I know now it is their loss for sure after realizing my own worth.  See, sane for sure now ;)